I am coming to know and understand more and more that I am not my body and to that identify with it as such is a major source of all my difficulties in life!

I am a spiritual being expressing through a human body. I am from God - from Love - from Beauty. I had forgotten who I truly am and punished myself for "leaving home."

I punished myself by not allowing myself to do that which makes me happy - that which God put it in me to do. I punished myself by taking away and separating myself from things, people, places, music, etc. that made me happy. I filled my life with things and people that only made it possible for me to get by with some small semblance of dignity. My life had become very small, and then it got even smaller. Through a series of events, most of which seemed beyond my control, I found myself without income or a place to live and work, and back "home" with my mom.

Now, mind you, all this is a result of believing I am a body and that I have to follow the rules of this world - this society. The ego can be very cunning and deceptive . . . .

I had returned home, but was this the home I'd been punishing myself for leaving?